[00:00.000] 作词 : 海图凯瑞[00:01.000] 作曲 : OmenXIII/ʎpoqou[00:17.490]在空荡荡的房间 一个人抑郁自闭[00:20.748]好多的回忆都变成不能说的秘密写成[00:24.487]把歌词写成了日记 变成给我的秘密[00:27.488]让我毫无力气 去面对每个四季[00:31.491]眷念你的片段逐渐让我厌倦[00:33.236]片面的渐变让我不断眷恋[00:35.486]不断变换见惯你的惦念[00:37.988]一遍遍消失在我眼前[00:41.988]让我怨念的游戏软件[00:45.487]当我学会一个人咋个 切生活[00:48.993]但你把我的生命都全部拿去 切争夺[00:52.737]你像个恶魔 又把我带走[00:55.740]又让我在黑暗里面独自漂泊[00:59.236]现在有了毅力又有点不切实际[01:03.246]在我看来毫无意义的事情都变得 那么甜蜜[01:06.494]这首歌送给你我的自闭老弟[01:10.244]如果还有来世我会陪你到下个世纪[01:12.486]I want to go[01:13.739]I want to for you show[01:17.489]beautiful place you lost for you face[01:19.239]I want to go[01:20.747]I want to for you show[01:24.744]beautiful place you lost for you face[01:27.995]我想说心里话但是又有点放不下[01:29.493]从小到大的情绪化[01:31.738]我的父母满头白发[01:35.249]为此我付出代价生活有酸甜苦辣[01:36.999]只想自己变强大[01:39.238]这是我自闭的时候经常说的话[01:41.239]纪念我的过去[01:42.496]但生活还是要继续[01:45.747]导致抑郁是如何把你失去[01:47.990]每天都活在地狱(里)[01:49.988]我却无法抗拒对你的畏惧[01:52.990]给我的治愈 是一遍遍描述[01:56.490]你戴上面具 进入梦境[01:58.490]确保证据 挥之不去[02:01.243]控制我的情绪又继续活下去[02:04.743]现在我只能把你捧在我的手里[02:07.746]跟我一起回到属于我的九里堤[02:18.989]就像阿拉梅说的我到底是自闭还是抑郁[02:23.239]I want to go[02:24.995]I want to for you show[02:28.737]beautiful place you lost for you face[02:30.989]I want to go[02:32.499]I want to for you show[02:35.989]beautiful place you lost for you face