drowning - Hunger Knowles.mp3

[00:01.316]Mmm…
[00:16.214]The water knows my name…
[00:20.064]Every wave sounds like home again.
[00:24.649]I’ve been living out of bags and dreams,
[00:28.675]Different cities, same routines.
[00:31.858]Falling in love just to say goodbye,
[00:35.911]Changing skies, but not my mind.
[00:39.393]Shanghai lights, reflections fade,
[00:43.278]Queenstown snow, the love we made.
[00:48.258]Sydney mornings, California night,
[00:50.839]Everywhere I go, I lose a piece of light.
[00:53.753]And I tell myself, it’s part of growing,
[00:58.663]But the tides keep pulling, never knowing.
[01:04.569]I’m drowning softly in a life half-lived,
[01:08.218]Floating through the plans I never kept.
[01:12.068]Falling for the future me,
[01:15.894]Missing who I used to be.
[01:19.778]I’m drowning slowly, but it feels like peace,
[01:23.638]Breathing underwater just to feel release.
[01:27.287]Every love I’ve touched, it slips away,
[01:32.213]But maybe that’s okay.
[01:48.561]My phone still glows at 3 a.m.,
[01:52.323]Another name I almost send.
[01:56.085]Some hearts are maps that never rest,
[01:59.962]Some homes are people we forget.
[02:04.013]Airplanes hum like lullabies,
[02:06.936]Every landing feels like a lie.
[02:08.669]Every hug’s a short goodbye,
[02:10.489]Every promise a borrowed sky.
[02:19.354]And I keep pretending I’m not afraid,
[02:23.194]But I still flinch at the sound of my own name.
[02:36.583]I’m drowning, gently, in the waves of change,
[02:40.529]Nothing stays, yet it feels the same.
[02:44.265]Falling for tomorrow’s face,
[02:47.993]Haunted by yesterday’s grace.
[02:51.696]They say the ocean heals the soul,
[02:55.465]But I keep sinking to feel whole.
[02:59.255]Maybe love’s just water’s form—
[03:02.440]It touches you, then it’s gone.
[03:07.306]I’m drowning, quietly, don’t pull me out,
[03:11.208]This is what life’s been all about.
[03:14.875]Learning how to float in pain,
[03:18.725]To love the loss, to love the rain.
[03:39.288]I think about all the airports I’ve walked through,
[03:43.200]how every gate felt like a version of myself leaving another behind.
[03:48.435]In China, I was still naive.
[03:50.288]In New Zealand, I learned how to fall.
[03:52.012]In Australia, I learned how to forgive.
[03:53.955]In America, I learned how to pretend I was fine.
[04:00.675]Maybe that’s what growing up means—
[04:03.510]falling in and out of places,
[04:04.901]of people,
[04:06.398]of yourself.
[04:09.329]I used to think I was running away from love,
[04:12.829]but now I think I was just searching for a quieter kind of love—
[04:15.779]the kind that doesn’t need a witness.
[04:18.361]Sometimes I miss the version of me who believed that love could fix everything.
[04:24.495]But now, I just want to hold her hand
[04:25.772]and tell her—
[04:28.039]it’s okay to let go.
[04:31.303]The future feels like an ocean too,
[04:35.328]and maybe I’m still drowning,
[04:39.188]but this time…
[04:42.231]I’ve stopped fighting it.