[00:33.580]These capsules promised healing[00:35.339]So tell me why I'm wasting away[00:37.099]Fill me with sedatives so maybe I can feel sane[00:40.107]Fix one thing,break another[00:41.867]I can't keep a steady hand[00:43.373]I made myself an experiment[00:45.129]Drowing in the side effects[00:48.388]I can't stomach it anymore[00:52.658]Prescriptions call me from the dresser drawer[00:55.924]Their consequences I cannot ignore[00:59.435]They never faded away with...[01:01.696]Time stands still from the bathroom floor[01:05.961]I'm bleeding out,the doctors keeping score[01:09.474]Begging for less but my body craves more[01:12.740]No,I can't stomach it anymore[01:29.054]COGNITIVE DISSONANCE FLOODING MY HEAD[01:33.073]DEMONS CONSUMING ME[01:34.581]MEDICINE COULD NEVER MEND[01:37.089]THE EXISTENTIAL REGRET[01:39.095]I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN THAT I'D DIE ALL ALONE IN THE END[01:44.119]WHEN DO THE DRUGS KICK IN?[01:50.389]TRAPPED IN A DAZE[01:51.394]TRADING ONE CURSE FOR ANOTHER[01:52.147]Why was I built so vulnerable?[01:55.663]My body's failing,sanity's escaping me[01:59.174]Don't wanna feel when I'm alone[02:02.183]Guss I'll never learn my lesson[02:15.487]I'll never learn my lesson[02:32.311]Gone places I don't need to be[02:35.573]Just to escape reality[02:38.837]Withdraw my mind so I fall asleep,fall asleep[02:45.614]How am I supposed to carry on with hope[02:48.626]When optimism is an artifact?[02:52.642]So I wait patiently,like a stone[02:55.656]It seems I'll never find my way out[02:58.670]Now this passive death with has become my own[03:01.932]I'm always hoping for a heart attack[03:05.697]I promised I would make it home[03:07.707]But I know[03:09.715]I can't go back!